Every night, another play

[Verse 1] I wake up in my room With an endless hangover gloom I play a carnival charade That fades into loneliness made When others sweep away With their brooms of forgetful sway What they want to silence here Without meaning, without fear [Chorus 1] I can't calm the dreams inside If I can't find the night I tried Lying on the couch with you Sweating through the evil we knew Fighting against the looming fate That escapes the future's gate [Verse 2] Every night, another play With masks that have no passion to convey When the curtain falls down There's no applause, no renown Loving truly isn't planned You in your world, me in my land No longer feeling deception Nor sadness, nor ambition [Chorus 2] I don't want to control What I try to say, my soul If you're not here when I fall I'd rather hide my will to live at all When tears no longer pour I don't want to breathe anymore [Bridge] And if this isn't the end Damn the passion that makes me fend I don't want compassion's call Trying to rescue from imagination's thrall The will to love once more Singing this song to explore