what if

[intro] Contemplatin' destiny, Connectin' the ends of a straight line, i forced into existance Contemplatin' reality, connectin' the dots, like a criminal detective, Lost, with no evidence [verse 1] I'm like a motor, missin' it's pistons Like a body lackin' nutritions Like an agent with no mission Like a psychic with no vision Of the future Consider my past as a relic of dispute Unclear how it got to this point Used to treat every day as a tribute (to life) Now i'm contemplatin' rollin' a joint Intimidatin' thougths, when i remember How it was 'Cause when i look at the calender I get reminded of all that works against me Been sick a decade too long [chorus] What if i became the addict i was supposed to be What if i took the route that was paved for me What if i would get the help i need What if i proceed, would i continue to bleed. [pause] What if i became the addict i was supposed to be What if i took the route that was paved for me What if i would get the help i need What if i proceed, would i continue to bleed. [birdge] Would it be any different Would it ever happen Would it take form in another event Would it always be with me to the end [verse 2] Too stubborn to understand, it wasn't part of my plan Powered through the pain Endured more than i could comprehand Drivin' me insane. So close to get up out of there. To support my mother But i was closer to death fodder Happened so quick, but so slow Thought i only needed some grease for my elbow Might aswell be on death row Lost connection with people That couldn't see it from my perspection Luckely i look at life as glass half full Currently i'm just tryna' improve Been so many boulders to move Can't count the amount of lessons learned Bridges burned, so My heart is gettin' colder [outro] What if i became the addict i was supposed to be What if i took the route that was paved for me What if i would get the help i need What if i proceed, would i continue to bleed. [pause] What if i became the addict i was supposed to be What if i took the route that was paved for me What if i would get the help i need What if i proceed, would i continue to bleed. (never give up) [end]