I Was Never Given a Choice

(Verse 1) Egotistical Narcissistic Lost in the logistics Need to re read the definitions Cause I can admit fault like no one's Business, not living in fiction Better watch your diction I just messed up my vision No more blurred lines Cause I will correct my bad decisions Unlike victim blaming I see my enemies running lines But no one can do the shaming Better than myself this needed to happen for a better health (Chorus) And I was never given a choice I made it work This life wants to tear, bend, and jerk I gotta make it work I was never given a choice At this life But I will course correct Invoice For a better life I'll make a better choice (Verse 2) I feel the judgement over my head Like you were the judge, jury, and God But I'd like to see you walk a mile in my shoes With your righteous facade Always assuming the worst of me But where were you when I was at the best of me It's okay we all got our own sins I just wish you would have been present at my wins Not just calling at all my losses Betting against me Like always being the casinos pit bosses Forgiveness has always been my flaw And best believe the greatest of snakes Come slithering in To abuse and take Just like their skin it's something I gotta shake I feel the judgement over my head Like you were the judge, jury, and God But I'd like to see you walk a mile in my shoes With your righteous facade Always assuming the worst of me But where were you when I was at the best of me It's okay we all got our own sins I just wish you would have been present at my wins Not just calling at all my losses Betting against me Like always being the casinos pit bosses Forgiveness has always been my flaw And best believe the greatest of snakes Come slithering in To abuse and take Just like their skin it's something I gotta shake Things are never gonna be a great story To fake I got my pen back It's up to me to make (Chorus) (Chorus) And I was never given a choice I made it work This life wants to tear, bend, and jerk I gotta make it work I was never given a choice At this life But I will course correct Invoice For a better life I'll make a better choice (Verse 3) Drowning in the lake As I consume the water Not reaching for your hand Saying I got it Not thinking of my son and daughters Let everything get the best of me Rather die then have you cover the bleed Now I know I need a healed me If I reach out will you hear And see I'm trying to be a better me again No more shenanigans Cause my mind is wearing thin I can not change those that are meant to be Fate has sealed itself shut Doesn't mean I won't rip that motherfucker open Cause these next few scenes in life need to be Cut I reach out will you hear And see I'm trying to be a better me again No more shenanigans Cause my mind is wearing thin I can not change those that are meant to be Fate has sealed itself shut Doesn't mean I won't rip that motherfucker open Cause these next few scenes in life need to be Cut And I was never given a choice I made it work This life wants to tear, bend, and jerk I gotta make it work I was never given a choice At this life But I will course correct Invoice For a better life I'll make a better choice [Repeat chorus] [HEAVIER GUITAR , DRUMS, BASS] [Fade out] [Dual dj scratching] [End music]