Strained Loyalty

(Chorus) I've had so much taken from me my losses are to much to track. I can't be exact with what I want back but gaining all that is just a dream. I've given up so much just for us to be standing side by side. So why did you lie? It seems that loyalty was a concept that only meant something to me. (Veres 1) I have tried so hard to think of what I could've done. To make you stay, I didn't know what to say, I don't know what I've become. So much bullshit has developed inside my head. All you did was lie, it took long to realize you were the wrong one instead. I couldn't breath, I felt so weak but it all seemed for I needed to remain strong. But your codependency was hidden in plain sight I enabled to be strung along. You're allergic it seems to loyalty but your quick to lie to my face. The red flag was waving but I kept swaying to enable such disgrace. Was it asking for to much for both of us to become strong and invincible. I Don't think it to be unrealistic, but I guess I was asking to much of you. I know I'm not perfect but it was all worth it, to me for us to steadfast. But to you it was pressure that kept on getting worst but I was the one trapped. (Chorus) I've had so much taken from me my losses are to much to track. I can't be exact with what I want back but gaining all that is just a dream. I've given up so much just for us to be standing side by side. So why did you lie? It seems that loyalty was a concept that only meant something to me. (Verse 2) I lost my own purpose, I fucking hurt when you gave up on us. I felt so consumed and overwhelmed by you, but I continued to trust. Every night I sleep I would pray that we would try to get better. But it's true what they say, at the end of the day, nothing lasts forever. But I didnt want things to end, but all I did was pretend that the fight was worth it. All the blood sweat and tears is what led me here, now all my pain has surfaced. It was blown out of proportion all of this torment that I feel every single day. I have nothing left to say, you're going away anyway, I am left in this place. Full of nostalgia, this shit has filled me up I'm not myself anymore. The memories consumes me, all of this misery has left me torn. I will guide myself, out of this hell, and have you out my fucking head. I'd rather live on my knees than to constantly beg you please to not leave instead. (Chorus) I've had so much taken from me my losses are to much to track. I can't be exact with what I want back but gaining all that is just a dream. I've given up so much just for us to be standing side by side. So why did you lie? It seems that loyalty was a concept that only meant something to me. (Bridge) I am left to wonder what else I could've done. Second guessing my effort and asking if it was enough. But your not worth the trouble of asking what this was for. You may have won the battles, but at the end I won the war.