I Wanted to Tell You How I Feel, but Instead I Decided to Go Outside For a Cigarette Break

[Verse] Shadows creeping on the walls Empty halls cold fall Can't recall what led to all Wonder if you even care Pulling strands of my own hair [Verse 2] Empty smoke through vacant lot Broken thoughts tied in knots What I got can't be fought Dire need of something real Can't explain the way I feel [Chorus] I wanted to tell you But the words got lost in the night So I stepped outside To battle the silence The smoke became my solace [Verse 3] Park bench under dying trees Sleeves rolled up elbows freeze Searching for some peace Alone in the dark and The shadows in my mind [Bridge] Every puff numbs the pain Wonder why I’m stuck again Truth spins in the drain Can't face the mirror Empty as it appears [Verse 4] Cold wind cuts through broken skin Thoughts spin lost within Crushing weight of my sin Can't scream can't grin Desire to begin again