Devils on the bottom

If I could change my soul, I would. If I could change myself, I would. I would be the best daughter, I would be the best friend, I would be the best person on the planet. But I can't, I can't, I can't. I'm scared, I'm really scared. I would be the most understanding, the most honest. I would change myself completely, at the root. I would be the most outgoing, the kindest. I would be the brightest thinker. Different. Different. With a different beginning, a different meaning. But I can't. The stupid rules of life won't let me. I can't relive the past. There are so many things I want to fix. I'm ashamed, I'm scared, I'm a ball of tangled threads with no path or continuation. I don't know who I should be or where I should go. I'm scared, I don't understand. I'm the worst person. I'm the worst person. The worst person!