Lyrics
(Verse 1)
In the silence of our room, where shadows like to loom,
I feel the ache where you once laid, now it's just a tomb.
I whisper to the walls, to echoes that won't talk back,
Your clothes still on their hooks, your presence I sorely lack.
Couldn't hold your hand, or wipe your fears away,
Haunted by your distant gaze, too much for words to say.
In the crowded aisles where your laughter used to roam,
I wander lost and aimless, in a world no longer home.
(Chorus)
Torn between love and rage, in this sorrowful stage,
Haunted by your secret life, the betrayal on each page.
Trauma-bonded heartstrings play a bitter-sweet symphony,
Adoring every part of you, despising what you did to me.
Miss your embrace, your chuckling grace, smart and profound,
But anger surges through my veins with evidence I found.
with evidence I found.
(Verse 2)
Driving past the lake, each ripple whispers your name,
Where you swam like it was freedom, now it's not the same.
The scent of your work shirt lingers like a ghost,
A relic of what we had, what I miss the most.
And yet within my heart there's turmoil deep inside,
For our love was marred by shadows where all your secrets hide.
I found receipts for hearts you stole while mine was in your grasp,
Yet still I long for just one more understanding clasp.
(Chorus)
Torn between love and rage, in this sorrowful stage,
Haunted by your secret life, the betrayal on each page.
Trauma-bonded heartstrings play a bitter-sweet symphony,
Adoring every part of you, despising what you did to me.
Miss your embrace, your chuckling grace, smart and profound,
But in this twisted love affair it's sorrow that I've found.
(short pause)
(Chorus)
Torn between love and rage, in this sorrowful stage,
Haunted by your secret life, the betrayal on each page.
Trauma-bonded heartstrings play a bitter-sweet symphony,
Adoring every part of you, despising what you did to me.
Miss your embrace, your chuckling grace, smart and profound,
But in this twisted love affair it's sorrow that I've found.
(Bridge)
How could you look like a god to me when shadows clung so tight?
Your tall dark frame and handsome smile should've felt so right.
Though thick in form and rich in charm, deception wore so thin,
Even now as I live on without you – it's a loss I can't begin.
(Outro Chorus)
Caught in love and anger's tide, facing truth with mournful pride,
Still feeling love deep inside for the man who lived so wide.
You were flawed yet divine in my tearful eyes afire
Tall dark handsome myth of mine—my tormentor and desire.
and rich in charm, deception wore so thin,
Even now as I live on without you – it's a loss I can't begin.
Now in the quiet of my grief,
where sorrow seems so rife,
I treasure fleeting memories that cut just like a knife.
The dance of anguish and love's refrain, in a haunting melody,
Torn between what was, and what will never again be.
Still I hold onto the echo of your voice, that teasing sound,
In this hollow heartache, it's you I'm missing all around.
But love is not just feeling; it's a choice that we must make,
And I choose to step out from the shadows for my own sake.
must make,
And I choose to step out from the shadows for my own sake.
(Outro Chorus)
Torn between love and rage, in this mournful cage,
Letting go of your secret life, turning a brand-new page.
Healing heartstrings start to play a hopeful morning symphony,
Leaving parts of you behind me, finding who I'm meant to be.
Missing your warmth, your whispering voice, sly and profound,
But forward I move through mists of pain, on new solid ground.
(outro instrumental)
