How do i stop it? V1

Your face pops up in my mind Ughh here we go again with this nonsense Something must had trigger the memory How do i stop it! I do not want to utter your name but that runs as well As if we had something special and you were the one that got away That is far from it Your name will forever be forgotten i tell myself but that is not easy to do when ypu keep popping back up Its the gentle ones that circle my thoughts How bout the bad ones when can i see them You really were not meant to cross my life Thats what i tell myself bit we all know people come and go and leave a mark An experience to learn from Good or bad, but i do not think there could anyone as worse as you so i overcame the bad part of living life Problem is im still not over it,no way!not far from it How do you convince yourself that no one will ever fool you and for it to go as bad s it got,playing mind games with a narcisist No one can go rounds with that kind of energy and not be worn out and feeling destroyed and helpless I know i put up a good fight But in that process i felt it was not right I just wonder how long it will take for me to feel myself again with energy and not feel the toxicity that ran me straight down I saw that side of you How do i stop it! I do not want to utter your name but that runs as well Your name will forever be forgotten i tell myself but that is not easy to do when you keep popping back up You really were not meant to cross my life Thats what i tell myself go away go away