Father

Abandoned at two, a childhood so cruel Grandma raised me, dad was no fool Showed up occasionally, but never enough Bailed on his duties, didn't give me love Victim of bullies throughout my school days Longed for a father to guide me through the haze But he was nowhere, left me to fend Against the torment that didn't end Half-siblings exist, but we don't connect I got no ill will, I just expect If they don't want me, I return the same This father-son bond was never to claim He had his chance to be a dad Made his choices, and they were bad I'm a grown man now, moved on with life No more energy for that childhood strife Some men just don't deserve that father name Cause being a dad is more than just a claim It's guidance, love, effort day-to-day He failed the test, no other way to say Overcoming bullying takes a lifetime to mend Having a father could have been that friend But he was absent, so I found my own way No thanks to him, helengthed my pain's stay But look at my son, my pride and joy Even though with his mom it didn't quite deploy I told that young man to achieve all I could not Be better than me, that's the hope I got