what if

[INTRO] Yeah, let me describe it. Contemplatin' destiny, Connectin' the ends of a straight line, I forced into existence Contemplatin' reality, Connectin' the dots, like a criminal detective, Lost, with no evidence [VERSE 1] I'm like a motor, missin' its pistons Like a body lackin' nutrition Like an agent with no mission Like a psychic with no vision Of the future Consider my past as a relic of dispute Unclear how it got to this point Used to treat every day as a tribute (to life) Now I'm contemplatin' rollin' a joint Intimidatin' thoughts, when I remember How it was 'Cause when I look at the calendar I get reminded of all that works against me Been sick a decade too long [CHORUS] What if I became the addict I was supposed to be What if I took the route that was paved for me What if I would get the help I need What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed What if I became the addict I was supposed to be What if I took the route that was paved for me What if I would get the help I need What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed [BRIDGE] Would it be any different Would it ever happen Would it take form in another event Would it always be with me to the end [VERSE 2] Too stubborn to understand, it wasn't part of my plan Powered through the pain Endured more than I could comprehend Drivin' me insane So close to gettin' up out of there To support my mother But I was closer to death fodder Happened so quick, but so slow Thought I only needed some grease for my elbow Might as well be on death row Lost connection with people That couldn't see it from my perspective Luckily, I look at life as glass half full Currently, I'm just tryna' improve Been so many boulders to move Can't count the amount of lessons learned Bridges burned, so My heart is gettin' colder [CHORUS] What if I became the addict I was supposed to be What if I took the route that was paved for me What if I would get the help I need What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed What if I became the addict I was supposed to be What if I took the route that was paved for me What if I would get the help I need What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed [VERSE 3] In the silence of night, I confront my fears, Whispers of doubt echoin' in my ears. Lost in the maze of my own mind, Searchin' for answers I can't seem to find. Every choice I've made, every path I've taken, Leaves me wonderin' if I was mistaken. Could I have done more, could I've been better, Or am I doomed to be a perpetual debtor? But amidst the chaos, there's a glimmer of hope, A flicker of light on this slippery slope. For every stumble, every fall, I rise again, standin' tall. I refuse to be defined by my past, I'll break free from this cycle at last. With each step forward, I reclaim my fate, No longer bound by the chains that compel me to contemplate. So I'll keep movin' forward, one day at a time, Embracin' the journey, no longer confined. For in the depths of darkness, I'll find my way, And emerge stronger, come what may. [OUTRO] What if I became the addict I was supposed to be What if I took the route that was paved for me What if I would get the help I need What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed What if I became the addict I was supposed to be What if I took the route that was paved for me What if I would get the help I need What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed Never give up (give up) [END]