Non-verbal

I'm sorry I didn't text you back I was busy lying on the floor staring at a crack in the ceiling and wondering what I miss more all of my righteous anger or the naivety before now I'm just feeling numb and going non-verbal you think I'm so dumb because I can't overcome this hurdle no overhead lights no sudden loud noises only nice textures and hushed voices it looks so easy for you, because it is I can't focus when I'm wearing my skin don't look me in the eyes, I can't handle it a little disassociation as a treat I want attention, but can't take the heat there's too many hurdles when I'm numb and nonverbal so take all your textures and sounds with you where they cant be found do I have the jesters privilege when no one listens to me should I burn down this village or have a nice cup of tea no overhead lights no sudden loud noises only nice textures and hushed voices now I'm just feeling numb and going non-verbal you think I'm so dumb because I can't overcome this hurdle ooooooo I want the attention, but can't take the heat....